I feel like nothing eventful has happened in my life for some time now. I go to work, eat food, come home, do my art, go to bed, wake up, go to work, eat food, come home, do my art, go to bed. Lather, rinse, repeat. I don’t like being stuck in a rut. I also fear change. So currently I’ve found myself in a rather odd place of limbo, scared to go in any one direction, but tired of my current stagnation. I feel a calling for creating great change in my life, however I don’t know the who’s, what’s, where’s, or when’s about that change. I do know that there’s got to be more than the status quo, a higher realm that thrives off the act of creation that changes lives.
I’ve been reading article after article about this Winter Solstice, trying to get some kind of insight into what my next step should be. I keep reading that this solstice with it’s new moon twist is a great time for setting intentions, making realistic goals, and identifying how to live authentically.
So here I am, looking across an uncertain vastness towards what I can dream for myself, what feels authentic to me, and what I long to bring to the world. It will take courage, will, hard work, perseverance, and no shortage of faith to build the bridge to get myself from my current place of Stuck to the New Dream. The idea of faith is where I really get scared, and want to turn around and run back to something safe. But it’s usually the safe things that keep me small and stuck, always craving the opportunity to grow and learn and evolve. Faith to me is like believing, because what we believe in can’t be seen.
I’m having faith in what I can’t see, only what I feel deep within me to be my truth and my purpose.
I’m having faith that the teachers, tools, and knowledge will come to me to help me get there.
I’m having faith that with an open heart and mind, my dreams will turn out better than I imagine.
I’m having faith that the arts can and will create positive change in the world.